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Tuesday, June 25, 2013

On The Move Once Again


Once again I’m in the process of packing my bags and shifting. It has become the norm of my life. So many cities, such different cultures, different values. Every city has made me learn new things while I had to unlearn others.  I created a “Home” in every city that I lived in. Every time I shifted I left behind a part of me in that city. Sometimes I wonder, if I keep living this nomadic life, will I one day have anything left in me to leave behind ?

Often I’m homesick and look forward to my short visits to my hometown, and yet, whenever I visit my hometown, home no longer feels like home. The city has changed, the people have changed and the visits leave me disoriented. The city that I once knew, now resides just in my memories…and I’m left asking myself what I was homesick for.

I guess homesickness and nostalgia for me is more related to the relationships I share with people and certain incidents and time periods in my past, rather than location. I have created so many “homes” and I have so many memories, and yet, I truly have no fixed place I can call home and it leaves me wondering…can a person actually be homesick when one has no fixed address one can call home ??

10 comments:

  1. when we are changing nests .. we take along with us memories and experiences to cherish..or simply remember about.
    even i believe homesick is because we love spending time with family or friends..a city/locality which we expect to remain unchanged..
    its the longing to see the past repeat itself and recreating the same..I feel ! :)

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  2. @ Jack - I agree :) It really is the longing to see the past repeat itself but unfortunately (or maybe fortunately ? ) time never stands still, situations change, people move on and it all becomes a thing of retrospect.

    @ Bedanga Sarma - Thank you :)

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  3. I have had this feeling many times. And when i was away from Pune and come back for vacations I would find my city changed...
    However as you said our memories remain the same...
    nice read ...

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  4. @ Cynthia - Thank you :) And yes, Pune has been like a second home for me too..and it has changed a lot in the last 5 years. Like I said..we all try to cling to the past but in reality nothing is permanent in this world..change is inevitable :)

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  5. We believe,we all have a home but soon we have to move. Such is our body also. We get so much used to it, we find it difficult to move on. Accustomed to the way we are called out we start believing that this body is us! But our true home is somewhere else. Nice read.

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  6. @ Krishna Rao - True..not even the body is permanent so how can places be..:)

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  7. That's really pathetic, a product of a nomadic life. But then, some compelling circumstances make us, rather reluctantly, to set a home away from a real home. I could very well understand your feelings.

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  8. When you have so many homes...the phenomena of 'home sickness' actually gets multiplied!!

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  9. @ Arumugam - Thanks :)

    @ Kriti - Yes true :)

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