Party Sharty Haye Haye

Attended a party. Have a massive headache. Wish I had declined politely and stayed at home reading a book instead !

Call me anti-social, introvert or whatever. Fact is – I do not like parties. More so where people drink themselves silly. I am OK in small gatherings spending quality time with my close friends sharing meaningful conversations and friendly banter but I do NOT enjoy big parties where people act “proper”, conversations stays superficial and smiles remain sugary and fake.

I cannot stand the stupidity and futility of all the drunk people! It feels like a waste of time, it makes me depressed, and  it's always disappointing.

Maybe I’m just simply anti-social or weird or abnormal, but I hate such parties :(

Bipolar Disorder

A school friend connects with me after almost 22 years. I am shocked. The girl I knew was a happy –go-lucky person who lived life to the fullest. This woman was a shadow of that girl. I could see a few shades of her old self here and there but the life had gone out of her.

All through the conversation, I sensed this deep anxiety in her and a fear of abandonment.  After probing, she confessed that she had been diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder and that her husband had deserted her after the diagnosis. I was shocked.

Ever since I talked to her, I have been reading up on what exactly Bipolar Disorder is and to those who are interested, here are a few symptoms:

Panic attacks
Deep anxiety
Fear of abandonment
Mood swings
Erratic behaviors
Suicidal tendencies

A bipolar person needs love, understanding and the support of their loved ones and friends along with proper treatment. If you know someone who is bipolar, please support them, love them. Your friendship may mean the difference between life and death.

My Weight Loss Woes

Me: Mirror mirror on the wall
        Have I put on more weight or what ?
Mirror: Err..you don’t really want to know Renu..
Me: Oh c’mon say what’s on your mind !
Mirror: Well you HAVE and you know it too..
Me: Mirror mirror kindly keep your mouth shut you moron !!!!

Hate & Indifference

In hating, a person is dedicating mental energy in hating you, which means at least they are thinking about you. Hate is a definite. It is an emotion, and it is closely related to love.

Indifference leaves you unsure. It  is more of an empty ache that cannot be filled. Hate hurts... but the sting of indifference lasts a lot longer.